Each of us can be true for just one day and then one more, and then one more after that, until we've lived a lifetime guided by the Spirit, a lifetime close to the Lord, a lifetime of good deeds and righteousness." President Thomas S. Monson President and Prophet of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
My sister and my mother go places together. They go out to eat, they shop, all the visit to doctors and drugstores are easy. My big Toyota was dangerous and I never felt safe taking my mother anywhere without my husband. Whenever we did go somewhere we invited my mother, even on long trips. I just needed the extra strength of my husband and his quickness to help her out and in to our FJ Cruiser.
|At A Flea Market In Carpenteria|
It wasn't hard for her to let-go of me, it was easier than
firing a housekeeper and made it hurt that much deeper.
So while I write this all down, I cry. I'm still resolving to continue in service. I'm going to help my mother-in-law, my grand children that are without much care of their own mother that lives in a different state. My blessings of service can't stop now because I felt not only needed, but more importantly , I felt closer to doing what the Savior has asked of us and that simply I promised myself to find "joy" in service without pay, reward, or recognition. I almost don't want to write about it, but I feel that my loss right now is something I can try and gain a new direction. I promise to do better. My Steve reminded me we can be together and be even more obedient. We would be free to attend the Temple. We could be free to provide service and help at a moments notice. He mentioned a quote from a Conference or talk and it was something like, "when you get a chance look-up 'impossible' in the dictionary.
I know that this change isn't by chance. I've been reading the Book of Mormon faithfully, praying every time I have a chance. I can't see the overall picture. Heavenly Father will provide ample opportunities and those will fill my days, if we're only willing to follow through. I hoping for that and it would make my heart glad again.